Since the age of 13 I have been keeping a secret that I haven't told anyone. For Halloween that year I dressed up as Boy George from the Culture Club. As a child I used to play with my moms make up, dress up in her underwear. I started out life as a boy but I always felt something was wrong but I didn't know what. I closely identified with girls. In plays in school I always auditioned but got cast as a female. I'm 23 confused and alone. I have thought about sex reassignment surgery.
I have always rooted for girls in sports. I have always read Nancy Drew books. I like Sara Peretsky's V.I. Warshawski. Sue Grafton's Kinsey Milhone. I sometimes think of myself as female. I have my mothers brain and intellect. I have came to the realization that I should research the prospect of becoming a woman. It feels normal for me to be a girl it makes sense. I'm afraid of what others would think if they actually knew that I want a sex change. I love women so much that I want to be a lesbian. When choosing doctors I'm more comfortable with female doctors. I don't like male physicians.
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